Back in the Saddle...

And you know what?? It's time... To start delving into doing the things I well and truly enjoy. To *make* time for the things that give me pleasure. To stop simply muddling though...

Last night Sporta and I watched a movie - In theLand of Women. And while for me it may not have been the best choice (seriously - should have read a plot summary or something - lesson learned), it was nice to just relax and enjoy the eye candy that is Adrian Brody. Very nice. :)

I have the new Janet Evanovich book to read. There is bound to be some good laughter to be had there, right? And a good friend of mine hooked me up with Tales of the City. Cannot wait...

This weekend I am catering a birthday dinner for a 97 year old beloved grandmother. And no - prunes are not on the menu. lol I will be serving pork cutlets marsala, roasted vegetable asiago penne in a marinara sauce, green beans almondine, a lovely green salad, and fresh rolls. Oh - and tiramisu. Yes - there will be pictures and recipes to come.

So that's a start. One foot in front of the other... :)

Sixteen...

Sixteen years ago today I got married. It was a fun day filled with hope and promise. Much laughter and many friends and beloved family... And good bad or indifferent, I had *really* big hair. (Photo proof here - lol)

And about an hour ago I signed off on all of the paperwork and filed for divorce.**

And while there are many valid and painful reasons for my decision - I will not be airing them here. There is no reason to. Just trust me when I say this is the right decision for all involved. And I have received MANY signs that I am on the correct path...

There simply comes a time to stand up, dust yourself off, square your shoulders and get on with it. Or as Pop would often say... "Rich, suck it up. Get tough." So that's what I am going to do. We have agreed to be amicable, and hopefully all will go smoothly. Though I have retained a savvy lawyer. Seemed like the smart thing to do all things considered...

I have a pretty good plan in place I think, and during the times that I am not just feeling completely overwhelmed by the enormity of the undertaking (and the paperwork - my GOD! The paperwork!) and thinking about all of the details that need to be resolved and covered I am actually pretty excited about the future. Or as it was best said in Armageddon... "I am 98% excited and 2% scared... Or maybe it's 98% scared and 2% excited... It's hard to tell."

So that's what I am doing today. Also going to go out for drinks with a few of my good girlfriends tonight. I need to laugh, and I am lucky to have some really sassy, brave, witty women in my posse...

And one day this will all be okay.

**The paperwork just happened to be done today. When the paralegal called she asked if I would prefer to come in next week since it was my anniversary today. I told her no. As Pop also used to say, "You either get busy livin' or you get busy dyin'... Make a choice."

September

Goodness. It's September. Where does the time go??

The girls have started school once again - 7th and 8th grade. And the hormones?? Well, let's just say that I am ever so thankful at times that there are 4 bathrooms in this house... Even though that means I have a lot of toilets to clean every week. Ha!

In other news some pretty big changes are in the works for me. I am turning forty soon and life is going to be getting very interesting on every level. My plan is to land on my feet, headed in a new direction. It is time.

My funny is still MIA by in large - though I do laugh every day. More would be better and I remain hopeful. There had got to be some comedy in this deal somewhere, right??

So - still alive. Still kicking. Still digging for a pony...